in this silence
i try to create
the sensation of being
found.
from nothing/
digresses
a plan
free from explosions
an open window
that does not
reveal the sky
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Insomniac's trip
It is officially morning, the sun has risen. I still have not gotten a wink of sleep. I’m tired and dazed. I am in that state where I am about to float into oblivion. I like it. It’s sick. But I can’t help it. I embrace what i cannot change. & make excuses for my failures with a smile. I think my stomach is getting hungry, but I’m too lazy to eat. So I think I’ll just wait it out until I wake up, if i get any sleep at all.
I love sleeping. I have every reason. It’s the only part of the day my brain’s not on overdrive. I think I also talk in my sleep. I know I talk to myself all the time. It’s one of my strange habits that bequests me with those funny looks.
So I went to the mall last night. We were there until one by one the stores started closing. Funny so much of life revolves around the notion of time. At precisely 8:30 p.m. some of the fast food places started offering discounts. At approximately 8:45 p.m. most of the lights were dimmed. At 8:55 p.m. all of the metal gates were pulled down, and we were still in one of the stores.
I felt sad for the puppies who were still trapped in their cages. 9:00 p.m. marks the time when everyone gets to go home. But the puppies and other small animals that were in the pet store will remain in their cages.
It is officially morning, the sun has risen. I still have not gotten a wink of sleep. I’m tired and dazed. I am in that state where I am about to float into oblivion. I like it. It’s sick. But I can’t help it. I embrace what i cannot change. & make excuses for my failures with a smile. I think my stomach is getting hungry, but I’m too lazy to eat. So I think I’ll just wait it out until I wake up, if i get any sleep at all.
I love sleeping. I have every reason. It’s the only part of the day my brain’s not on overdrive. I think I also talk in my sleep. I know I talk to myself all the time. It’s one of my strange habits that bequests me with those funny looks.
So I went to the mall last night. We were there until one by one the stores started closing. Funny so much of life revolves around the notion of time. At precisely 8:30 p.m. some of the fast food places started offering discounts. At approximately 8:45 p.m. most of the lights were dimmed. At 8:55 p.m. all of the metal gates were pulled down, and we were still in one of the stores.
I felt sad for the puppies who were still trapped in their cages. 9:00 p.m. marks the time when everyone gets to go home. But the puppies and other small animals that were in the pet store will remain in their cages.
i hate that i don't have enough time to write on my blog, anymore. It feels like I have abandoned something. It is terrible when you leave something behind, or you get left behind. I originally intended for my blog to be a place where I can take refuge, when I can't stand everything that is happening to me in the outside world.
But I don't even have enough time to get in here, and reflect on some of the things that are happening to me. Oh yeah, I bought a new pair of shoes today! yehey! That sound so girly, I hate myself. I know that absolutely nobody gives a darn about my shoes, but I just felt the need to share. Anyway, I gotta go now and write some more stuff.. byebye blog world.
But I don't even have enough time to get in here, and reflect on some of the things that are happening to me. Oh yeah, I bought a new pair of shoes today! yehey! That sound so girly, I hate myself. I know that absolutely nobody gives a darn about my shoes, but I just felt the need to share. Anyway, I gotta go now and write some more stuff.. byebye blog world.
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