lapse in judgment

Recently I’ve been beating myself up, haunted by the same mistakes that I’ve been making over & over again. It’s one thing to make a mistake and learn from it, and another thing to repeat the same one hoping that each time there’ll be a different outcome. A positive outcome, your fairytale outcome.

It’s amazing how many follies one can make when empowered by the strength of delusion. For a split second when you are about to make that choice it’s as if your memories don’t exists. As if the past with all its heartbreaks, bad checks, uncomfortable shoes, launched verbal warfare that you regret seemed like a world away. This is just plain idiocy. Thinking you can escape the consequences of your actions, ‘cause in the end you’re have to pay the price like it or not.