i just need to let it out of my system

I was sick yesterday so i didn't go to work...why, does this makes me so happy. I just lost so much money in attendance bonus. In a way this makes me sad, because i was working so hard on my perfect attendance ever since i got to training I haven't had one absent or tardy; but yesterday my body finally gave in. Maybe it was because it was then that I finally felt that stress and the hardships of the whole 3 months that I've been working at TP, or maybe because out of nowhere our sup informed us that we all had to punch in an additional 1 hour of mandatory calls... I could barely make it past 8 hrs of receiving calls, now from this day forward it's going to have to be 9hrs!; that really got to me, that was the last straw. The injustice and the crappiness of the whole situation of being an employee, and your whole existence pretty much just getting kicked around...is not cool. I know this is how the corporate world works...but still, I've always known that when I push my body beyond it's limits, catastrophic things happen...I physically break down. It's impossible for me to function, and do my best when I feel like I'm about to lose it any moment now! That's what exactly how I felt last Friday, when I was doing my last hour of shift.


I prepare for work around 6 pm, and up until 8:30 am I was still at work taking phonecalls! That's just too brutal.... Now I feel really apprehensive about going to work tomorrow, what happens is I make myself sick when I'm sucking in my frustration, and woes...like right now. I don't know what I'm going to do about this whole thing, work was hard enough as it was without this additional weight added on myback. I don't mean to *beeech* and moan, but this whole thing is getting to me. I have lost all of my contact with the natural world ever since I started working at a call center. I have not written a poem in 3 months, I probably just have seen two movies since. I'm losing all contact with mah friends and family. Basically what I do everyday is just take calls for the whole day, and when I get home I am dead tired to do anything else...so I just sleep untill I have to get ready to go to work again!!!!!!!! SOMEBODY SAVE ME FROM THIS HOLE I'VE DUG MYSELF IN!